Dumb fucks

My fucking phone lines were cut last night. Some fuckers cut the phone lines to my whole street, except the corner shop. Then attempted to burgle the shop, tripping the alarm system.

I hope they enjoyed their night in the police cells.

The phone disruption also effected my grandmother who lives next door to me. She's in a wheelchair and wears a personal alarm round her neck to summands help in the case of a fall. That requires the phone to work. So it could have been a dangerous situation for her.

Lies and Deceptions

Nearly a year ago I was involved in a online relationship with a very mysterious man. He could never tell me his full name, his occupation or even his date of birth. Nevertheless I was head over heels for this guy.

Then he said he was going away to 'take care of family business' and his 'friend' would be using his net connection, email address etc etc. He said he may not be back. Of course I was absolutely devistated with this, but things went from bad to worse. His 'friend' hinted that the man I loved had died, but refused to be straight with me. This went on for several weeks, i was beside myself with worry and frustration.

Eventually I plucked up the courage to ask ex-girlfriend of this guy if she knew anything. I think she took great pleasure in informing me that he had indeed died. I fell apart.

She then told me that she had a background check done and the man I loved and 'his friend' were one in the same person. And all the stuff he'd told me about his lifestyle etc was absolute rubbish. She even hinted he was married. This majorly did my head in.

I kept it all to myself, my head spinning with it all for several months. Until I see the 'friend' and the ex-girlfriend confessing their love for each other in the chatroom we all frequent. I spun out, I didn't know who was lieing to me, and who, if anyone, was telling me the truth.

I hardened my heart to the whole situation. And I gave his ip address to a real life friend of mine, who with the help of others traced the phone number that this man connects though dial-up from. Around the time I got this information the 'friend' informed me he was leaving the net. Yet i've seen him in the chat room, hiding under various aliases.

I'm done with the mind games. I'm worth more than this shit. Sure, i've lied online in the past, but it was nothing compared to this. Lol, funny thing is....this guy gave me the best cyber...ever.

Thanks for the ride...

I was reading someone elses blog with mixed feelings this morning. This was the lady whose blog inspired me to start my own. She is someone who frequented the same online community as I do, but someone i've spoken to only twice.

I read most of her blog, including a large part of it she since deleted. Her thoughts on sexuality, the Dom/sub relationship...particularly the online form of such, has helped me realise that alot my feelings were okay. That I wasn't alone in feeling the way I was.

This part of me isn't something I have gone into much, if at all, on this blog. Its partially because I really don't think i've got it straight in my own head. As I told a friend a few days ago...how can I explain things to other people when I don't really have a handle on it myself? And partially because I don't want to expose myself to the judgement and opinions of my online community.

Anyways back to my friend, I think I will call her that, shes moving on to new adventures. I wish her success, happiness and most importantly...fun with it. I will miss her though.

(12:49:44am) (12:49:44am)(-HellCat-) quite frankly....you're too good for all of them

Frustration...

A friend of mine is going though a rough time at the moment. Her husband left her for another woman late last year, and now she’s got CYPSS up her ass. CYPSS is a government child protection agency. There job is looking after the children and young people in New Zealand’s welfare. Apparently they had received a complaint from her youngest child’s preschool about the child’s disruptive and emotional behavior. Like WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY EXPECT?! Dads moved out and Mum’s devastated…of course the kid gunna react.

My friend is struggling, as it is, to deal with three upset children, the never ending bills, not to mention her own feelings of betrayal and deception at what her husband has done. Now she’s got social workers dogging her every move. But instead of arranging for the family to see councilors or for the mum to do some sort of helpful course or something, they are coming up with scenarios as to why these children are upset. Of course discounting the obvious truth.

It frustrates me to see this agency spending so much time on this family when to me the solution is obvious….time and some emotional support. There are a lot of other cases out there that they should be concerning themselves with. A 6 year old little girl got beaten to death by her step-father the year before last…..CYPSS knew there was a problem with that family months before this happened. Guess what they did? NOTHING! Ditto with another guy who stabbed to death his 2 teenaged step-daughters.

I know how inept CYPSS are first hand, I reported the abuse of my brother and sister and their two younger brothers to them. And again they did nothing. It’s only been in the past 6 or so years that they have been involved with my father’s ex wife. And not surprisingly they have taken custody of her 10 and her 13 year old sons. Shame they didn’t react when I told them what was happening with my brother and sister. Might have saved them a lot of physical, emotional and sexual abuse.

Sometimes I wanna scream with frustration!

Ho ho ho

I got another 'diss' site closed down! This particular one showed pictures of a friend of mine with offensive comments written over it with a paint-shop program.

Werhoo...they've been published!

Two of my erotic stories have been published on a site!

This one I wrote totally by myself...

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This one I kinda co-wrote with a friend...

4:00am

I'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The Aliens have left!!!!

It wasn't as bad as I had expected. Just being told to go to bed was kinda gay, I do think i'm old enough to figure it out for myself.

They left a few days earlier than anticipated because Sofima's father in Samoa died suddenly 2 days ago. So shes catching a flight to Samoa in the morning. Dad and Mark are going back to Melbourne as planned.

Lethal Weapons aka clay

I've been a petrol head for years, but I saw something at the speedway last night that scared me. I've seen drivers hurt before, its one of the risks they take when they participate in the sport... But never seen an audience member hurt before.

We were at Baypark for the Qualifier for the National Stock Car champs last night. I had my 6 year old daughter and my 6 year old brother with me. We sit with a group of friends with alsorted children and adults. We know that clay gets flicked up and you have to be aware of it. Hell, I once caught a bit before it hit my friends daughter in the face.

But last night a woman got hit by a huge lump of clay and got taken to hospital by ambulance. It kinda freaked me, it could have easily have been a child. The Stock car Champs are tonight, we are giving them a miss.

Spyware SUCKS!

I recently had a run in with the dreaded Spyware. My Dad is staying here for the holidays and has been using my computer. I turned it on one morning to find 7 new desktop icons, a new homepage, new stuff in the favourites list, and 2 new toolbars.

I tried Spybot Search and Destroy and AdAware, neither of them shifted the damn things. A friend put me onto a forum where you post your hijackthis logs and techies tell you how to get rid of the problems. THANK YOU SHANEY!! :D

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They directed me to a few articles that I found facinating..

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