The things you see when you are in town

One of my local sex shops had 'Pull till you PoP' signwritten across its window. Then it said something about a veiwing booth. Sounds very seedy to me. I'd prefer to hire videos @ $1.25/week and watch them in the privacy of my own home. Its all about those naughty nurses, baby!!!

Hmm..What now?

Been feeling a bit blah these past few days, like the whole worlds been against me. It was my ex's 'female friends' birthday yesterday. I expected him to come online at some stage, but if he did, I never saw him. I was hoping we could have a conversation and I could gain a bit of closure to this whole situation. But it looks like I will have to wait. Again..

I recently had my arm twisted into joining an efed. I'm actually finding it quite fun. I've always enjoyed creative writing. This gives me a place to do it. Plus the 'roleplay fueding' is kinda funny. Here is my latest roleplay...
http://laramusic.low-ping.com/user/21418/images/EvE%20vs%20trish%2023oct.txt

Talking about feuding, I think me and the 'Illiterate Server Owner' have sorted things. Hes admitted he was being a cockhead, and explained what his problem was. I promised I would behave as much as I can on his server. Though if provoked, there are no guarantees.

Halloween is quickly approaching. Nicole is fully aware of it, and is terrified at the prospect. Its only recently become popular here in New Zealand, and I hate it. A few years ago a bunch of kids knocked on our door wearing masks. They scared the fuck out of Nicole, she had nightmares for weeks about it. The years since then I've put a sign on our door saying 'Halloween Free Home, NO Trick or Treaters, Thank You'. Its worked, none have actually knocked, but Nicole watches them walking up and down the street from the window and is terrified. I will remember to close the curtains early this year.

Anyway, I must toodle off to work. Fun, fun, fun

Illiterate Idiot Server Owner

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'Power Mad'

I have a friend, well more of a acquaintance really, who has recently got a new chat server. He is wielding his new found power like a hammer. Now, I admit I can be a trouble maker at times, and I know I've gone through a really angry stage lately. But his reactions to me are not helping.

He has my 'net stalker', an older woman who talks constantly about me, screenshots my words in chat, lurks my message boards (and prolly this place too), makes up MSN addresses similar to ones I possess and generally stalks me, as one of his IRCops. She likes to talk about me behind my back, yet when I confront her about it on his server he zlines me!!

Then I have this other idiot showing up and running his mouth off at me, yet when I respond, I get zlined yet again. Reason:'lameness' GAY!

Last night I'm on his server, yet not in any of the channels. I'm away from the computer and come back to find myself force joined to the #help channel. And he came up with this pearler: (08:38:59pm) (08:38:59pm)(12@steve) i dont want trouble in my server if someone is messing with you take it cuz fk was told not to use his powers to stand up for you, if you dont want to here ppl talk shit about you ignore them if you cant and you feel the need to talk shit when it comes to my attention i will perm zline every party involded i am advertising this professionaly and paying for it i dotn want no kid drama and as far as chrissy it started in a diiferent server so it stays out of m>>

From what I can decipher, basically he told me that anyone can say whatever they want about me, yet if I respond I get zlined. That is horrendously stupid. I'm generally not a fighter, but can be a smart-ass at times. But treating me like a fucking child and that sorta shit does nothing but piss me off and make me want to cause more mischief. Right now I just can't be bothered with him or his stupid server. But later on, when I am feeling bored, who knows.....

Isn't she pretty.

This is my beautiful daughter Nicole. This picture was taken in Auckland. Thats a sick piglet shes got her hand on.

The things I end up talking about..

Later last night I was in a chat room with a couple of young guys, somehow the topic changed to oral sex. Both of them obviously had no clue as to how to get a woman off (sorry guys, if you ever read this, but it was), yet thought they did...so I suggested they check the instruction manual on the net. LOL And being the curious person I am, I typed in 'Instructions for making a woman cum' into my search engine, and came up with this. I made them both read it. LOL

http://www.iwantanewgirlfriend.com/articles/article.asp?article_id=4&ArticlePageNum=1

Imma petrol head.

Just got back from the first meeting of the season at BayPark Speedway, covered in terracotta dust, and still buzzing from it. There were a couple of roll-overs in a limited saloon race, but apart from that my passion for destruction wasn't really satisfied. Unfortunately the field of Street Stocks is much diminished from previous years, so much so they didn't even bother putting them out tonight. Must say I was disappointed, I love my Street Stocks!

The Super saloons were in good form, The manager of my local New World Supermarket, Dean Wardell has a new car this season. It was strange seeing him in a lime green car instead of the black one of past seasons. Him, Craig Richards and Tiger Wood's caddy Steve Williams seemed to be very evenly matched.

I've been a speedway fan for many years. Me and my brothers and sister used to go when I was in my late teens. This was when the old BayPark stadium was around. The seating consisted of wooden planks. We used to travel over to the speedway in my old little Honda City car, blasting my Pioneer stereo with Broken Wings by Mr Mister, We Built this City on Rock and Roll by Jefferson Starship and 'our song' River Deep, Mountain High by Jimmy Barnes. That was 'the good ole days', you know, when we actually talked to one another. LOL

The old BayPark Speedway closed down about 10 years ago. I vaguely remember going to the last meeting there....damn drugs. And no my siblings weren't with me at that time. Shit happens though, a lot of things have changed since then...

This is the fourth season the new and much improved BayPark has been open. And the 3rd season me and my daughter have been going. A big packet of chips, ear muffs and goggles and she's happy. Spends more time playing with my friend's son and daughter who we meet up with there. The music we listen to on the way there has changed. Tonight it was my mix CD of mainly metallica, HIM and cKy.

I still cringe when I hear that Jimmy Barnes song. My radio station insists on playing it at like 7am some mornings, a good incentive to get my ass outta bed...

On to other things.

For many years i've hated cooking with a passion, only do it because I have to feed my daughter. But 4 weeks ago we went to Auckland to meet and stay with my daughter's father's mother and her husband. They live on a lifestyle block just outside Auckland. They have cows, sheep and pigs on their block. Anyways, they sent us home with a freezer full of quality meat. This has kinda renewed my interest in cooking. There was only so much you could do with cheap mince and sausages. LOL.

BayPark Speedway's opening night is tommorrow night. I'm looking forward to it, chance to catch up with some friends I haven't seen for a while. Plus the av-gas smell from the Saloon cars, the noise and the drivers in their fireproof overalls is a turn on. I know, I know, I'm mad. But hell, life would be very boring if we were all sane and straight laced....

I felt the need to give a bit more information...

Ever since he left his place, ive felt a distance between us. What pissed me off majorly was him emailing me from his cell phone and whinging about a female friend of his who was ignoring him. I was like 'big freakin deal, im here and im your girl friend, isn't that enough?' But apparently it wasn't.

Once he got there he was kinda attentive, coming online most days, even if it was for only 10 minutes. That was kewl. He kept telling me I could call him whenever I liked, shame his cell phone was off alot of the time, eh? And he only stayed on the phone for like 5-10 minutes because it was cold outside/dinner was ready/someone needed his attention/[insert another bullshit excuse here]...etc....

Then came the day MSN was down, we talked in PM in the chat room we both frequented. It was our anniversary. He spent his brief time argueing/talking with this 'female friend' of his, giving me one word answers to my attempts to make conversation. Then accused me of telling this female friend's boy friend that I was intending on breaking up with him. What pissed me off the most was his inclination to believe her rather than me.

Anyways, so I talk to once a few days later on the phone, he tells me he loves me and shit and still wants to be with me, call me tommorrow at a certain time. Surprise, surprise his phone is off again...

So I get fucked off and leave it for 5 days, expecting him to miss me or some shit, and email me or something. I hear nothing. So by the 5th day I give in and call him. First of all it rings and I get his voice mail. Then I ring and get his 'Auntie' telling me ive got the wrong number. I'm like oh... So I ring back and get her again, shes very rude. An hour later I try again...with redial too, and get his voicemail yet again.

Today I try again and get his cousin saying there is no one there by that name, I ring back and get the cousins girlfriend saying shes my 'relationships' girlfriend and not to call again. By this time i'm pretty wound up and know damn well they are lieing to me. So I call again and demand to speak to my 'man' that happens several times till finally he picks up and comes out with 'Don't call me again, I don't wanna talk to you' My attempts to talk rationally and discuss his sudden change of heart fall on deaf ears. I think 'fuck you buddy' and don't bother wasting my money.

Here I am later the same night, 3/4 of a bottle of rum in me, feeling no pain. I still think he owes me an explaination and an appology. As a good friend of mine said today....hes addicted to this place (the net) like the rest of us...HE WILL BE BACK. Guess my explaination etc will have to wait till then. Won't hold my breath in the meantime...

Well, thats the end of that..

I've been dumped..I think? Yeah, I must have been? Surely? Fuck I dunno. You see, I had been net dating this much younger guy, he moved, said he still wanted to be with me etc etc. Yet 3 weeks to the day, after over a week of dicking me around and not being in contact, of having other people lie on the telephone to me. Saying I had the wrong number and all sorts of shit, he finally gets on the phone and comes up with 'Don't call me again, I don't want to talk to you' LAME!!!

Geezus man, grow some fucking balls and be a grown up about it. If you don't want to be with me, then fucking say so, some sort of explaination might be nice too....

I kinda saw it coming, hell, I was warned about it from enough people. The funny thing is though, most people expected ME to be the one who fucked it up by cheating. Strange how these things work out. So...here I am feeling vindictive, justifiably angry and mildly upset I've taken both of his message boards, I might give them back, if he comes and asks me nicely. Or maybe not. we shall see.

Onwards and upwards I guess...

This isn't effecting me like I thought it would, weird.

I'm not sleeping well

The past week or so i've been having really vivid and disturbing dreams. The night before last it involved my daughter being taken away by a monkey carrying a chinchilla. I woke up crying from that one.

And a few days before that I dreamt I was pregnant to a online chick I know and don't much like, and I was standing in another friends forum, and her and her boyfriend wanted to take the baby away. Fucked up, eh?

Come to think of it the dreams all seem to be about having someone I care about taken away from me. Perhaps my subconscious is trying to tell me something. God, I hope not.

With all these dreams I haven't been sleeping well, so subsequently i've been absolutely drained and exhausted by 10pm, which is very unlike me. I'm a night owl by nature and hate going to bed. Its all very weird. Stress or something maybe? Iunno.

Werhoo

I thought I would have a go at this. Anarchy seems to have alot of fun with his, even though he lost like his whole blog recently. And Hellcats blog makes for some interesting reading. I can relate to alot of the things she says.

Oh well, time to go make some dinner, might have another play with this when I finish.